离开太久了，回来看看。

 

年轻的日子一晃就过去，还是留下来点儿什么好。

 

baby steps，下次再写流水账。

今天参加了Iris姐姐的婚礼，感受一个字-累！

 

倒是老爸老妈感动得一塌糊涂，尤其是鄢伯伯搂着将嫁出去的姑娘跳舞那段儿

 

Iris姐姐一套一套地换衣服，我去探班的时候她扯着嗓子地叫着要吃鸡腿儿，只能冲到楼下去给她和伴娘们买巧克力和肯德基炸鸡翅。哈哈，这光鲜婚礼的背后呀！

 

回家以后老爸老妈开始讨论，这婚礼的长度怎么合适，嘉宾请多少合适，在哪里开，中式还是西式，blahblahblah 俩人越说越起劲儿。我看二老可以搞wedding planning 啦！哈哈！

 

又到合肥了，鸟不生蛋。一个人在酒店里，寂寞得要死。只能叫碗牛肉面-心灵上空虚，只能填饱肚子来解决问题了，你们看我是个多容易满足的姑娘。

明天是Iris姐姐的大日子，今天晚上就匆匆忙忙地赶回北京了。

 

回家吃了爸爸拌的豆腐丝，妈妈炖得燕窝，看X'mas party pics/videos，把脏衣服扔给老妈。折腾了一大通。

 

爸妈睡了，我还过着香港时间，困又不想睡。有段时间不回北京了，不在的时候想得不得了，回来了却又觉得失落。想念北京是因为回忆，一切都那么熟悉，让我想起在这里度过的每段刻骨铭心，也许因为同样的原因，北京让人觉得有些沉重。

 

QQ恋爱了，我真开心，等不及见嫂子了。有个男孩儿这样疼，真好。

 

我这个落后的土人终于看the Holiday了，甜蜜得让人心酸 ：） 和nini许下我们的new year revolution，找个靠谱的男人，好好谈场靠谱的恋爱，这要求不过分吧。

 

 

明天晚上赶去合肥出差，然后回香港，好在22号就休假了，又要杀回来了。

 

谁在北京？陪我胡吃海塞吧。

圣诞请假了，回北京吃喝玩儿乐个几天，然后陪老头儿老太太找个世外桃源天天睡觉喝茶逛小店，这日子怎么想怎么美：）

 

上个星期和小溪一起把我们家崽儿带回家了。从崽儿生病，住院到最后出事儿，我似乎都是很平静得接受。总是说服自己要当比较坚强理性得那一个，一切发生得也很顺理成章。直到崽儿没了，才感到失落。每天晚上躺在床上，都想起来崽儿毛茸茸肉呼呼满地跑得小样儿，欠了吧唧往床上蹦不让人睡觉得烦人劲儿。没敢跟小溪说，没了崽儿得每天都会梦到他，都在后悔自己把他领回家却没尽到当妈得责任。

 

现在带他回来了，小小的崽儿在一个小小的瓶子里面，心里反而踏实了很多。和小溪沉默着去的，互相闹着回来的。这是不是有点儿不严肃?小溪说，崽儿给我们带来这么多欢乐，我们该笑着送他走

 

 

好累。

 

为什么最需要安慰的时候总要一个人

 

以为繁忙起来就不会空虚不会孤单

 

原来只会一个人疲倦一个人辛苦一个人承担一切

 

以为让步可以海阔天空，现实一些就会快乐一些

 

原来还不够坚强，还是不能承受失望

 

要找个小小的安静地方，躲起来。每天晒晒太阳，和妈妈喝喝茶，和爸爸散散步

 

也许这样简单的生活，才能够满足和开心

 

 

好久不更新了，最近的update 还真的不少。

 

一件大事儿就是我和亲爱的小溪move in together了，看我们的小家布置得舒适cozy，心里真的一股子甜蜜。之前一直担心和好朋友住在一起会有矛盾，不过我们这么爱对方，即使暴脾气一时不够宽容理解，最终也会原谅对方吧。从伦敦回来，身边有cong, 小溪，一直有好朋友的陪伴和照顾，感觉和几年前在香港很不一样。当时有成长的混乱和烦恼，现在终于可以稍稍静下心来去对待一些人一些事。

 

除了之前的consumer, 现在也开始做gaming 和 industrial, 很有意思。 熬夜熬得抵抗力下降，昨天发了一天烧，今天请了假，在家睡觉休息，和小溪一起看韩剧。折腾一通，对工作的态度也摆正了一些，工作上再卖命，没有生活的balance，也就失去了意义。无论多么忙，我也要每天打电话给爸爸妈妈，每周腾出时间来陪朋友，争取每个月都要大家一起出去做些outdoor 的活动。嗯！

 

还有哦，恭喜亲爱的葱葱找到称心的工作和房子！

 

HERE YOU GO JUICY PICS FROM L-TOWN!!

虽然妈妈一再强调生病了要忌口不可以吃辛辣刺激的东西

我这样无辣不欢的人自然不会放弃任何吃辣的机会

一晚上全辣席后，以为嗓子会完全报废掉

没想到第二天早上完全痊愈

嘿嘿

 

最近香港在下暴雨，北京却阳光明媚

很开心可以有理由赖在北京

其实日子没有那么惨

虽然很辛苦，但是很喜欢现在的group，身边的同事也都很nice

更有offcite 和去cepu和london的trip可以look forward

 

很久没有这么充实的感觉

很开心很满足很感恩

 

好好把握

 

谢谢朋友们的理解，原谅我一再爽约和迟到，爱你们

 

 

回来北京了，真好

 

周五做书做到早上五点，又和丁聊天到六点

晚上带着小溪和公司同事high到4点多

第二天和同事去逛街被淋个透湿，错过了回北京的飞机

 

事实证明，

人是不可以这样作的

这样作的结果就是当我顶着脸上的小青春痘儿回到北京时，一下子就病倒了

嗓子像破锣一样，以至于conference call的时候我要在电话上一再声明我是xx您并没有打错电话

 

借着生病，我心安理得地享受妈妈的悉心照顾

窝在沙发上喝着妈妈炖的燕窝，扯着破嗓子给妈妈讲我的工作我的朋友我的心情

趁着老爸不在家，赖皮地跑到妈妈房间睡觉

利用难得没有工作的free sunday morning看八卦的名人传记和电视上重播的武林外传

 

原来生病也是可以这样舒心幸福的

 

 

 

 

不知不觉就已经完成了从学生时代到上班族的转换

很怀念上班前的海带生活

每天睡到太阳晒PP,然后装模作样地抱着电脑去咖啡厅看书听歌，去花市买花收拾房间

现在一顿美觉、和家人朋友不受打扰的one night out都已经是奢侈了

 

但是还是觉得自己很幸运

这一个多月学到很多东西，也经历一些磨难

感谢在我遇到困难的时候总是遇到贵人相助

尽管原定的Europe trip由于被公司胁迫提前上班而告吹

还是很幸运可以在正式training之前可以开始一些on job training

趁着training的空歇也可以到london周围转转吧。。。

 

今天是母亲节

要飞去香港不能陪妈妈过节

尽管提前送了礼物心里还是无限内疚

这些天，我加班，妈妈也跟着熬夜

还是天天操心着我的衣食住行

工作压力大的时候我还不懂事地和妈妈发脾气

真是太该打了

原来无论上学、工作，无论长到多大多么独立

在妈妈眼里，我都是个需要妈妈保护照顾的孩子

那无论岁月怎样流逝

在我眼里，妈妈都会永远年轻漂亮

 

妈妈，我爱你哦，母亲节快乐！！

 

 

Chinese New Year's eve, I'll probably be busy hanging out with the whole family, talking to uncles/aunts/cousins/grandmas, taking a traditional way to celebrate Chinese New Year like fireworks, dumplings, and watching TV. So here, everyone, I wish you a Happy Chinese New Year ahead of time. Best wishes in the Year of PIG and beyond! Good love, better health, and all the very best in 2007!

 

The ten days in Hong Kong were amazing... Many thanks to dear Cherry, for letting me crash at your cozy place...and introducing me to your awesome friends...I miss you already, all the mid-night convos, crazy dancing and drinking, oh babe, my shopping/bed/drinking/dancing/talking buddy, I cannot wait to start life in Hong Kong and spend more time with you. And dear congcong, it was great talking to you until dawn again, almost three years, time and experience changed us both, but not too much to our friendship..amazing isn't it? Tina, having known you for only a few months, but you've been like a big sis to me, listening to me when I was down and sad and crying..your understanding and sympathy...I really appreciate it...It was great catching up with old friends and meeting new friends, having some fun and taking some challenges. I don't know what to expect in the coming year, new life in old city? but I know I'll try my best to make some changes, a real revolution to my life.

 

For the past years, I've always tried to be tough, to show that I can get over any hurdles, that I am like a soldier who will never break down. Maybe only close friends have seen my weakest side, when I cried over their shoulders...Since when, I started playing cool, saying I don't give a damn while sheding tears behind people's back. Love and romance, it is not everything in your life but can ruin everything if it doesn't go well. People get hurt, grow up and learn about life. How much did I learn about love, about life? Some of my friends have a love theory to keep a perfect and healthy relationship, to keep their men love and appreciate them. Where is my bottom line? Is it that hard to play no game and just purely simply love each other? After M, the man I deeply loved but cannot be together with, I couldn't help but keep asking myself: how far I dare go for love? How truely I believe in the power of love? Was all the passion and romance a mistake that went beyond my moral and ethic? Am I therefore a horrible person who is so selfishly concerned only about my own feelings? After all these up and downs, scoldings and blames, tears and hurts. Can I still love and be loved? I tried to make some sense out of my mind...but man...I'm so confused and lost...I always tell my friends that only the one who can bear the loneliness will get the true love. and happiness has its own way of taking its time. However, loneliness is not the thing I'm scared of, it is the fear of missing the right person, the desperation of not believing.

 

What can I do, if I can't love, can't forget, can't let go?

 

The soap opera Heroes on HBO, never saw it. Cherry told me it's about people who have special gifts like flying, feeling no pain, etc. I wish I had a special gift, to reverse the past, and foresee the future, to glue together pieces of broken heart, to stop crying and remember only happiness. But I'm nothing more than ordinary, guess the only thing I can do is, to pick up the broken heart piece by piece, hoping I'll get better a lil every day. And finally one day, I can look back with smile, rather than in tears.

 

I've never made a New Year's revolution, guess this will be a good time to start one. So here it is, my new year's revolution: I want to put aside all the emotions, the so-called love and romance, believe in God that He will have a better plan for me, focus on my dream and career, make my family and friends proud of me. No give-up, Never stop trying.

 

For people I love and care. happy new year. I love you all.

I will be fine

                -顺子

I will take care, because I love you

When you said good bye I was fine

only at this moment

our love, had a feeling of eternity

I told you that please leave when you feel tired

I will be fine

and I won't shed a tear in front of you

 

I still feel happy even when you are gone

when we love the deepest

and the love

we will keep deep down in our hearts forever and ever

don't turn around

let it go

 

I am grateful, thank you for loving me so much

when I held you in my arms one more time

for the last time

and we wouldn't let go

time froze at this moment

I know you were devastated as well

don't worry honey

I will be fine

and I won't shed a tear in front of you

 

I still feel happy even when you are gone

when we love the deepest

and the love

we will keep deep down in our hearts forever and ever

don't wait until we hurt each other

then break up with more pain

please say I will be fine and will take care

I feel happy having loved you once

our love

let it go